I can see clearly now

  Early this week, I sat in meditation on the pallet boards behind my garage that sit beneath a tall tree with a perfect opening for the sun to shine down through. I closed my eyes and everything turned red. Then black. Then three indigo dots forming a triangle started bouncing around in the center of …

wild ways of growing

I watch closely as heclimbs with persistence and experiments with the elements and objects around usI run with him as he dances with the leaves and laughs into the windI answer questions that arise from his inquisitive observing and interesting finds And I wonder how others ever question our methods of learningHow they could miss …

We need to talk about it, mamas

Postpartum Depression - lets talk about it. Do I really want to? No. De we absolutely freaking need to? YES. Why? Because as a mama, the pain we hide in hopes to only reveal strength is secretly breaking us inside. During labor, before Weston had even made his arrival, the nurse sat down with me …

becoming his mama

It was just another regular weekly baby appointment when I mentioned to my Dr that I was waking up with a little leak each morning. It had been happening for about a week and I thought I was just sleeping through the constant need to pee. It definitely wasn't a gush or a stream as …

27 Weeks

27 weeks of growing a human has been magical, tiring, eye opening, and life changing. 27 weeks have passed by so fast, they feel like a blur. 27 weeks in a new body, with a new mindset, and a new purpose. 27 weeks of ever growing love & internal fear of the unknown. Although I …

a letter to my son: you’ve healed me before I’ve held you

Dear Weston, You are not yet on this Earth, but you are living and growing within me as I walk it. I have not yet kissed your face or held you in my arms, but you are already the most important being in my life. You are already changing me in so many ways, so …

with time comes change

Life is changing. Not just in big ways, but in small uncontrollable ways as well. Reaching your mid-late twenties comes with a lot of self realization and discovery. It also brings on even more challenges in life and questions of who you are. I've realized at this stage of life you have to be in …

finding courage to speak & time to listen

After watching the second season of 13 Reasons Why, my heart was twisted. There is so much emotion, graphic depiction of pain, and truth about the honest suffering teenagers endure. I remember going through a lot of similar experiences and pain. One main battle the characters face in this show is how to confront their …

thank you, sisters

Women empowerment. It's a huge topic in today's world. Encouragement to uplift each other's spirit, defend one another against the odds we face, have each other's backs when some asshole grabs or cat calls - all that good shit. It's amazing, really. Our time, as women, is now. Even while still under so much inequality, …

a child’s presence.

Stay in the now. Try to remain present. These are two things I repeatedly have to remind myself when my anxious mind starts up on overdrive. They are important reminders because if you can actually follow them, they work to eliminate past and future anxieties that have settled or are brewing. We often miss out …